{"id":113778,"date":"2024-10-13T19:43:45","date_gmt":"2024-10-13T12:43:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hotvideos24.online\/?p=113778"},"modified":"2024-10-13T19:43:45","modified_gmt":"2024-10-13T12:43:45","slug":"how-i-learned-to-cope-with-my-fear-of-death","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hotvideos24.online\/?p=113778","title":{"rendered":"How I learned to cope with my fear of death."},"content":{"rendered":"<p> <script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-3711241968723425\"\r\n     crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script>\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"fluid\"\r\n     data-ad-layout-key=\"-fb+5w+4e-db+86\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-3711241968723425\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"7910942971\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><br \/>\n<\/p>\n<div itemprop=\"mainEntityOfPage\">\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"49\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223kq0g0012tpm4f2nqffkk@published\">I used to think I had a decent relationship with death. Or at least, it didn\u2019t register in my anxiety\u2019s greatest hits. But when the pandemic hit and death was suddenly everywhere, when it awaited all of us in an unsettlingly immediate way, I became obsessed with chicken breasts.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"91\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223ldgl000q3572p2gprjw8@published\">The quantity of poultry I could stuff into my freezer was directly proportional to how safe I felt, a kind of buffer against illness and death. Why? Who knows. I needed to find a way to control this uncontrollable, existential threat, and my brain decided to hoard bird flesh. At least it was <em>somewhat<\/em> practical and made meal-planning easier, but the approach had its limits. For instance, any time I pulled one out of the freezer, I would burst into tears. Not ideal for someone who eats a lot of chicken.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"106\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223ldnk000r3572nh4m3zis@published\">And if the global miasma of death wasn\u2019t enough, in October 2020, my mother-in-law, who used a wheelchair and lived alone, had an accident and ended up bedridden in a nursing home. Because of the pandemic, my husband, my sister-in-law, and I could not visit or help or effectively advocate for her care, and by the time we were allowed inside, her physical health had deteriorated profoundly from neglect, lack of centralized communication, and the general chaos that the COVID-19 crisis wrought on an already broken elder care system. She entered a painfully long spiral toward death. There was very little we could do about it.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"58\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223ldxq000s3572zbjxg6kp@published\">To cope with this new uncontrollable situation, I became obsessed with cooking dinner (you might be sensing a theme). I had moved past my chicken-specific anxiety only to fixate more generally on food prep. My whole day revolved around planning, shopping, recipe selection, and cooking because I felt that my food choices were what held our lives together.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"55\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223le93000t3572mcklcm3i@published\">This wasn\u2019t my first rodeo with death. I had grieved the tragic, untimely deaths of friends and family members, and even survived a dramatic car accident that belonged in a cautionary driver\u2019s ed video, where our car went off a steep embankment and flipped (my friends and I managed to walk away with minor injuries).<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"49\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223leqy000u357213u40sjj@published\">But those events were just that\u2014<em>events<\/em>. Moments to grieve, but still moments. This new threat of death felt more like a narrative shift, grueling and endless. Once death was thrown into my life in a visceral, relentless way, I discovered I was actually pretty bad at dealing with it.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"82\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223let6000v357209l8xqhm@published\">Despite being one of the only truly universal human experiences, death is strangely difficult to understand and accept. For many of us, for most of our lives, death is present only in an abstract way. We know, even as children, that death is a fact of life. But it\u2019s so easy for it to feel like something that happens to other people\u2014preferably people we don\u2019t know. Death can stay safely out of the realm of possibility for us, until, suddenly, it can\u2019t.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"111\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lev1000w3572icabj10i@published\">Throughout history, humans have developed traditions to toe the tightrope between terror of death and denial of it. It\u2019s been said that <a href=\"https:\/\/www.newscientist.com\/article\/mg21628872-900-memento-mori-its-time-we-reinvented-death\/\">in ancient Rome<\/a> it was the job of an enslaved person to whisper in a general\u2019s ear that victory was fleeting and his own death was inevitable. The traditions of <a href=\"https:\/\/www.britannica.com\/topic\/memento-mori\">memento mori<\/a>\u2014Latin for \u201cremember you will die\u201d\u2014are nearly as old as the religion of Christianity. <a href=\"https:\/\/realismtoday.com\/understanding-the-vanitas-still-life\/\">Dutch vanitas paintings<\/a> from the 17<sup>th<\/sup> century prominently featured skulls, rotting fruit, and hourglasses to remind viewers of the fleeting nature of life. And Buddhist traditions have <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Mara%E1%B9%87asati\">diverse approaches<\/a>, from meditating on the impermanence of life to literally observing the stages of corpse decomposition.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"114\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lex4000x3572qygrgxgw@published\">It appeared there were parts to the death-coping equation: One, we must see death (or be a close witness) to believe it, and two, we must meditate on it to <em>accept<\/em> it. We have to accept that it happens to people we love. We have to accept that it will happen to us, and that we have very little say over its timeline. Some people find this acceptance through religious belief and prayer, but in general, modern death-coping traditions are anemic at best. And in any case, I didn\u2019t have any. So it became abundantly clear that I needed to find my own way through my fear of death, because it wasn\u2019t going away.<\/p>\n<section data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/product\/instances\/cm223q312002j3572ad9ayot3@published\" class=\"product \" data-product-name=\"&lt;em&gt;Remember You Will Die&lt;\/em&gt;\" data-product-price=\"$15.80\">\n<div class=\"&#10;        product__img&#10;        product__img--portrait&#10;      \">\n<figure data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/image\/instances\/cm250d3ax000e3572nzd56itd@published\" class=\"image image--center\" data-editable=\"imageInfo\" style=\"width: 392px;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/dp\/1728256038\/?tag=slatmaga-20\"><\/p>\n<div class=\"lazyload-container\" style=\"padding-bottom: 150%;\">\n        <img alt=\"The cover of Remember You Will Die has the title written several times, all but one crossed out. \" class=\"lazyload\" data-src=\"https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0\" data-srcset=\"https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=320 320w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=480 480w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=600 600w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=840 840w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=960 960w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=1280 1280w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=1440 1440w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=1600 1600w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=1920 1920w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0&amp;width=2200 2200w\" data-sizes=\"(min-width: 1440px)780px,&#10;(min-width: 1024px)709px,&#10;(min-width: 768px)620px,&#10;calc(100vw - 30px)\" width=\"378\" height=\"567\"\/><br \/>\n        <noscript><br \/>\n          <img decoding=\"async\" class=\"lazyloaded\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/f1233c60-fbfb-4fee-a276-48734bb4cbde.png?crop=378%2C567%2Cx7%2Cy0\" alt=\"The cover of Remember You Will Die has the title written several times, all but one crossed out. \" width=\"378\" height=\"567\"\/><br \/>\n        <\/noscript>\n      <\/div>\n<p><\/a><figcaption class=\"image__meta\">\n<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<div class=\"product__info\">\n<p class=\"product__description\">\n      By Eden Robins.  Sourcebooks Landmark.\n    <\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/section>\n<p class=\"disclaimer\" data-word-count=\"19\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/disclaimer\/instances\/cm223q3ra002s3572uan03nl7@published\">\n    Slate receives a commission when you purchase items using the links on this page.<br \/>\n    Thank you for your support.\n  <\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"78\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223leze000y3572jkj4yfpf@published\">My personal death meditation tradition started when I stumbled across a documentary called <a href=\"https:\/\/www.obitdoc.com\/\"><em>Obit<\/em><\/a>, about the New York Times\u2019 obituary desk. In the documentary, I learned that most mornings when the obit writers came to work, they would receive a short brief about a deceased person, maybe with a few phone numbers of loved ones to call. They were expected to research, write, and file a complete obituary by the end of the workday. One day, one life.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"43\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lf1e000z3572bnwiqxoc@published\">There was something so poignant about this undertaking\u2014of devoting a full day, but no more, to learning everything you could about a stranger and then having the sobering but glorious responsibility of narrating their life in print. It felt painful, but also heroic.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"195\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lf3k001035721cmnyt0n@published\">I\u2019m not an obit writer, but I am a novelist. So I decided to write obituaries of fake people. I wrote one every day for months. My first obit was about a woman who died of neglect in a nursing home. This was not a conscious choice, but in retrospect was perhaps a way to process what my mother-in-law was going through. After writing this first obit, I became interested in a mention I had briefly made about a daughter the woman had placed for adoption. So the next day I wrote the daughter\u2019s obit, which, in my fictional world, came many years later. For months, every day, I woke up and sat quietly until something sparked my interest, and then developed a life and death out of that interest. I thought deeply about who these people were, who loved them, what they loved. You never know the full narrative arc of your life until it\u2019s over, and it was truly calming to look back on these imagined lives and write about what made them special. I had a vague idea that these stories might become a novel, but I didn\u2019t plan anything in advance.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"56\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lf5f001135722z8xsdej@published\">During meditation, we focus on our breath, bringing this autonomic and unconscious function into consciousness. Not to control the breath, but to participate in and witness it. That attention affects systems of the body that we can\u2019t consciously access. In this way, meditation really is like a magic trick, a secret portal to your mysterious insides.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"70\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lf7i00123572f1cdu3wv@published\">Without quite meaning to, by writing obituaries of imaginary people and giving myself access to grief in an emotionally safe way, I had created my own way of meditating on death. I had built a sandbox where I could be curious about my grief and fear without trying to control or be controlled by them. Fiction is its own kind of magic trick, a secret portal to the mysterious world.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"14\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lfa9001335726ii1iie2@published\">And after weeks of writing fake obituaries, I found I could breathe more easily.<\/p>\n<aside class=\"recirc-line\" data-via=\"recirc-line\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/recirc-line\/instances\/cm223kq0g0013tpm4b184z6s2@published\">\n<p>    <a href=\"https:\/\/slate.com\/culture\/2024\/09\/sally-rooney-intermezzo-new-novel-normal-people.html\" class=\"recirc-line__content\"><\/p>\n<div class=\"recirc-line__img\">\n          <img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=140\" width=\"141\" height=\"94\" srcset=\"https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=320 320w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=480 480w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=600 600w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=840 840w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=960 960w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=1280 1280w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=1440 1440w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=1600 1600w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=1920 1920w,&#10;https:\/\/compote.slate.com\/images\/e1e4c74a-4e37-4c6c-b9c5-682376ec6d33.jpeg?crop=3000%2C2000%2Cx0%2Cy0&amp;width=2200 2200w\" sizes=\"auto, 141px\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\"\/>\n        <\/div>\n<p><h4 class=\"recirc-line__byline\">Laura Miller<\/h4>\n<h3 class=\"recirc-line__promoline\">This Bestselling Author\u2019s New Book Might Scare Away Fans. But It\u2019s Something Special.<\/h3>\n<p>        <b class=\"slate-link--bold recirc-line__read-more\">Read More<\/b>\n      <\/p>\n<p>    <\/a><br \/>\n<\/aside>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"150\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lfc600143572e4brsat5@published\">In the 1980s, psychologists developed \u201c<a href=\"https:\/\/www.bbc.com\/worklife\/article\/20220929-the-unsettling-power-of-existential-dread\">terror management theory<\/a>,\u201d which hypothesized that when faced with existential threats and reminders of our mortality, we tend to seek comfort in certainty, and become more polarized and aggressive in our opinions\u2014of other cultures, religions, political ideals, and so on. There is some evidence that when we are reminded of our mortality, we will punish people we\u2019ve decided are not like us. On the flip side, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.frontiersin.org\/journals\/psychology\/articles\/10.3389\/fpsyg.2020.595990\/full\">researchers have <em>also<\/em> observed<\/a> that when faced with an existential threat, such as the pandemic, we may choose to channel this fear into acts of creation instead, opening ourselves up to curiosity and flexibility, and feeding a sense of purpose and connectivity in the face of uncertainty and death. So I added a third step to my equation\u2014first we must see death, then we must accept it, and finally we can try to make something beautiful out of it.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"36\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lff4001535727f2zrpyp@published\">It was January 2021\u2014during peak chicken-breast-in-freezer anxiety, as well as the attack on the Capitol\u2014when I started writing the daily obituaries that eventually became my new novel, <a href=\"https:\/\/monkeythumbs.com\/\"><em>Remember You Will Die<\/em><\/a><em>, <\/em>which comes out Oct. 22.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"37\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lfhg00163572andot86d@published\"><em>Remember You Will Die <\/em>is told entirely through my linked obituaries (plus a few news briefs and other \u201cfound\u201d documents, but no traditional narrative). I finished the final draft the day my mother-in-law died, in July 2023.<\/p>\n<aside data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/in-article-recirc\/instances\/cm223kq0g0014tpm40650hblu@published\" class=\"in-article-recirc\" data-via=\"article-inline_recirc-section-life\">\n<ol class=\"in-article-recirc__list\">\n<li class=\"in-article-recirc__item\">\n          <a href=\"https:\/\/slate.com\/life\/2024\/10\/donald-trump-kamala-harris-election-project-2025-ad.html\" class=\"in-article-recirc__link\"><\/p>\n<p>            That Sure Is One Way to Convince Young Men Not to Vote for Donald Trump<br \/>\n          <\/a>\n        <\/li>\n<li class=\"in-article-recirc__item\">\n          <a href=\"https:\/\/slate.com\/life\/2024\/10\/tinder-bumble-dating-app-singles-events.html\" class=\"in-article-recirc__link\"><\/p>\n<p>            Dating Apps Destroyed In-Person Romance. 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What She Did Ask Could\u2019ve Been Worse.<br \/>\n          <\/a>\n        <\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<\/aside>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"56\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lfjl00173572bcq4wjz0@published\">Her death, even though we knew it was imminent, was still shocking and awful. To mourn her, my husband and sister-in-law decided we would spend an evening watching her favorite movie (<em>Murphy\u2019s Romance<\/em>) and cook a meal their mom used to make for them when they were kids, a family favorite: potato boats (no chicken involved).<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"66\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lflm00183572589768qp@published\">Because of my by now extensive experience with fake obit writing, my husband asked me to help write his mother\u2019s real one. I\u2019m ashamed to say it became a task I dreaded and put off again and again. Somehow, knowing her personally made it so much harder to see her life from the helpful (and, well, fictional) distance that had allowed me to write the novel.<\/p>\n<p class=\"slate-paragraph slate-graf\" data-word-count=\"88\" data-uri=\"slate.com\/_components\/slate-paragraph\/instances\/cm223lfnx00193572v13spjfa@published\">That obit, and my relationship to death, are still a work in progress. And so I\u2019m not saying channeling my fears into writing this novel fixed my fear of death or made me triumph over grief. But by embarking on a gentle but persistent habit of seeing death, meditating on it, and making something creative out of my fear, I\u2019ve started to develop a healthier relationship to the fact that we all die. 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